hate vs love

Final is coming soon.. hv to spam study on every single subject... haiz...
somemore dere r 2 sub nid to memorise... sighs
final,i reali hate it~!!
but it remind me dat one sem is going to finish soon and holiday is coming... hehez

act i plan where to go for my holiday ad.. ^^
most prob will b pulau pangkor wit my bebe.. (think so)
so now must not think much bout dat but study...
u see i post tis at tis time sure noe i still haven slp....><""
stress sia...

Hate it~

Tell u all sth, recently i damn hate one type of ppl.
which is de one doing nth and put none of the effort on sth,
but get de same result with the others, which is C**y lorr...
sighs...
u noe what, seriously i meant it~!!
i'll tell de lecturer if next time she do de same things again~!!

Feeling~

I feel like i'm dying...
Just don't know why it's so weird, that the feelings keep coming to me..
Something goes wrong in my life??
I have no idea of what it's...

I try to figure it out,
as fast as i can,
but it's still the same..

My head, My mind,
All my thought left out only thought..
Now i can't think of anything~
My mind is totally blank~

I hate this kind of feeling,
the weird feeling inside of me~

Shit~!!!

I'm damn fucking no mood.......
soli but plz allow me to say de rude words~!!!
ARGHH~!!!!

Blood Donation

Ohya,i almost 4got to mention about my blood donation on friday...
1st time donate my blood.. Although my mum don't allow me to do so..
It takes me 7-9minutes to finish the one pack... *alot leh*
Wonder why so fast??
Bcoz i press my hand frequently lorr...
Wanna see??



This is the picture
After blood donation.....

my hand before blood donation....

Bcoz press too much ad (i think).. then bcome like tis...

a ping-pong ball size.... ><""

But can help ppl, nvm lar..

And i noe my blood type as well.. ^&^

Guess what, my mum reali hit the point...

She say i have the same attitude like her..

so she say Sure blood group B...

Reali come out B...

Geng~!!!

I'm here again~ ^^

It has been quite a long time since my last post.
I have been quite busy this few weeks with all those courseworks and assignment (exhausted).
Luckily still have some time to go out and have fun.
Well,recently nothing special happen in my life.
It's just that abit stress sometime when there are so much unfinish works.

Other than that,the final exam is getting nearer and nearer.
So many things still haven't prepare. *sighs*
Don't know how to scroll it well. :(
But i still can manage my stress by talking with my darl and some of my friends.
Later afternoon will be our SWC picture shooting section.
Post the picture when i get back later. ^&^

Now think of where to have our sem break time to spend with..
Anyone have any ideas please let me know ya~
Cherish your ideas~ ^^

Lastly,my NIKE bag............ haiz.....

thanks~

Thanks for the support you all had gave me last time.
Feel great from all those support.
And i'm so glad that after 4months she choose to be with me again.
At first i asked why she want to be with me again?
Isit because of i won the debate in quater final?
As we 1st agreed that if i win the debate,
she must tell me her answer.
If i lose, she also have to tell me but under one condition.

So i won the debate. ^^
Then that day me and my friends spend one day at sg.wang (sing k)
She also go sing k with her friend.
And that's how i can get the answer that day.
And so, on that day she agreed.

Then yesterday, she said she agreed with me not because i won the debate.
But is just that she felt the changed in me.
Which mean i did changed~ ^^
So i was so happy that i heard what she said.
And, she also said that she felt more relief to be with me than last time.
Because of my behaviour now which is more optimistic.

Yesterday i can't sleep whole day because i'm too happy of what she told me.
And so, i just want to thanks you all that support me all the way.
March-End of May, i was so down, not optimistic at all.
But after that, i try it hard to changed to become more happy,
and finally i did it~ ^.^v
Thanks~!!

Happiest Day in my life~

Today i'm so happy that i get the anwer from her saying that
she agree to be with me again~ yeepee ^&^
The situation was totally happy for me~
I'll for sure cherish this opportunity that she give me~
I won't let you go again or make you disapointed~
I'll try my best to make you happy everyday in your life
even though there is the worst thing happened~

Don't worry as this is what i promise you,
though this is what i'm going to do~
^&^

Love~

There is always a miracle in love~
Love that brough them there...
Love that makes every impossible to possible...
Love makes people around it happy and cheerful...

There is always a six sense in love~
Love makes people tend to understand each other better...
Love makes people know or sense the partner where she/he is...
Love makes people crazy on the other partner...

~I Thought of You~

I thought of you and how you love this beauty,
And walking up the long beach all alone
like the sunshine beneath you.
I heard the waves breaking in measured thunder
As you and I once heard their monotone.

Around me were the echoing dunes, beyond me
The cold and sparkling silver of the sea,
We two will pass through death and ages lengthen
Before you hear that sound again with me.
And i promise you that i will never ever let go of you.
I thought of you!!

New Hope??!!

Recently didnt blogging alots like last time..
Maybe not so free to be...
Anyway,for those who know my blog,
i just want to tell you all that i don't know whether it's a chance for me or not..
Coz she just broke up with her bf,and so,
i ask her about few questions after few days..

I'm very happy that she answer me she still have the feelings on me..
Just that she say she need sometime to think about it..
I understand it and that's why i'm still waiting for her decision to be make~
If my friends,those who view my blog,
please leave a comment for me on this please~
i do really appreciate your comments~

I really see the new hope for me to be with her again~
And she agree to go out with me tomorrow~ ^^
I don't know what to say but just very happy~
Hope i really can get her back~
^&^

Give up~

What happen around the world of mine??
Isit so hard for me to find someone that i really can rely on??
I truly really don't know how to get start with it....
It's just all bull shit after all~!!

I really hate those feelings already~
Thought that i can be what i wanna be~
Thought that it could be mine~
But all still the same~
Never ever changed!!

等待。。

等待是一种痛苦，
寂寞的夜空里，
有谁在陪伴着我。。
夜地星空，
有谁来安慰我。。。

想找你，
难道这样也有错吗？？
喜欢上你可能是我的福气，
和你分开，
也就等于福气完了。。。

我。。。。
真的不知该再用什么形容词来形容了。。
该想的，该说的，该做的。。。
我都做了，
你真的不明白吗？？
:(......

sorry...

Sorry that i let you all feel that my blog is so sad and hurt.
I don't know why and where to express my feelings thoroughly.
That's why i express it through my blog.
Hope that you all will not mind if i make you all so down.
And sorry if i make you all feel so.

Today you said that i can find you any time when i feel boring
or want to chat with someone.
I feel so happy to hear it,
but on the other hand,
i don't know what does that mean.
Isit it mean that you still have some feelings on me??
Isit it mean that you still like me somehow??
If it's,
then i'll feel very very glad about it.
Just if it's not,
then why you still treat me like this??
I.............
I really get more and more confuse over here....

I swear to GOD that i love you more than anyone else.
I swear to GOD that my love for you would never fake.
I swear to GOD that if you tell me what i'm not good with,
i did will change it for you....
I really really love and like you till crazy,
just that you are the one who still don't realise about it.

That is the reason why i still can't let go till now.
The 1st message i received from you,
i feel so happy that this world really give me an opportunity.
But today in some of the message you talk about you and him.
I really feel so upset about it.
I don't get it.
Isit you still have the feelings on me but also you still want your boyfriend now??
I feel hurt today.....
Damn hurt when i chat with you the topic about you and him.

I can't really accept that fact that i lose you.
Kah yi or what i call you last time (darl darl),
I still consider you as one of mine.
I do care about you more than anyone else here and always do.
I still waiting for the opportunity to tell you that,
come back to me,
i love you still~!!
I really do~!!

Don FeeL Lik€ It's GoinG 2 WorK On M€ Any Mor€

I try so hard to get on well,
everytime i tried,
i fall...
Although i had push it to the limit,
but it's just doesn't seems to work on me well..
I just don't know why it'll be like that...

Maybe this is my life,
this is what i gonna to be...
I told myself to be strong..
Everytime i fall,
i did get up...
But this time,
it seems that i had fall too deep inside...
Can't even see the light or the exit of it~!!

I ain't as strong as before.
I ain't as tough as before.
You see me,
but it's not me~!!
Head spinning around~!!
Thought everything gonna be fine when you are gone...
Thought i can live my life without you..
But IT'S NOT......