等待。。

等待是一种痛苦，
寂寞的夜空里，
有谁在陪伴着我。。
夜地星空，
有谁来安慰我。。。

想找你，
难道这样也有错吗？？
喜欢上你可能是我的福气，
和你分开，
也就等于福气完了。。。

我。。。。
真的不知该再用什么形容词来形容了。。
该想的，该说的，该做的。。。
我都做了，
你真的不明白吗？？
:(......

sorry...

Sorry that i let you all feel that my blog is so sad and hurt.
I don't know why and where to express my feelings thoroughly.
That's why i express it through my blog.
Hope that you all will not mind if i make you all so down.
And sorry if i make you all feel so.

Today you said that i can find you any time when i feel boring
or want to chat with someone.
I feel so happy to hear it,
but on the other hand,
i don't know what does that mean.
Isit it mean that you still have some feelings on me??
Isit it mean that you still like me somehow??
If it's,
then i'll feel very very glad about it.
Just if it's not,
then why you still treat me like this??
I.............
I really get more and more confuse over here....

I swear to GOD that i love you more than anyone else.
I swear to GOD that my love for you would never fake.
I swear to GOD that if you tell me what i'm not good with,
i did will change it for you....
I really really love and like you till crazy,
just that you are the one who still don't realise about it.

That is the reason why i still can't let go till now.
The 1st message i received from you,
i feel so happy that this world really give me an opportunity.
But today in some of the message you talk about you and him.
I really feel so upset about it.
I don't get it.
Isit you still have the feelings on me but also you still want your boyfriend now??
I feel hurt today.....
Damn hurt when i chat with you the topic about you and him.

I can't really accept that fact that i lose you.
Kah yi or what i call you last time (darl darl),
I still consider you as one of mine.
I do care about you more than anyone else here and always do.
I still waiting for the opportunity to tell you that,
come back to me,
i love you still~!!
I really do~!!

Don FeeL Lik€ It's GoinG 2 WorK On M€ Any Mor€

I try so hard to get on well,
everytime i tried,
i fall...
Although i had push it to the limit,
but it's just doesn't seems to work on me well..
I just don't know why it'll be like that...

Maybe this is my life,
this is what i gonna to be...
I told myself to be strong..
Everytime i fall,
i did get up...
But this time,
it seems that i had fall too deep inside...
Can't even see the light or the exit of it~!!

I ain't as strong as before.
I ain't as tough as before.
You see me,
but it's not me~!!
Head spinning around~!!
Thought everything gonna be fine when you are gone...
Thought i can live my life without you..
But IT'S NOT......

~An Un€xp€cted Day~

Well,lets start off with the 1st unexpected thing,
today me and my friends was having a debate in the class
together with the other team...
Well,we are not prepare good enough as what we had expected that
we all gonna screw out...
><""

The most unexpected thing is that the other
party was dressing up so FORMAL (coat,tie EVEN THE SHOES)~!!
Then we all like,
shit,this time sure kena "kao kao" from them already...

So,the debate BEGIN~~!!
Tat wah(my friend),1st speaker...
i'm the second lorr.... =.=
then we are so scare that we will screw it out in front of our classmate..
><""
hands shake,confuse and so on...
all feelings MIX UP TOGETHER~!!

Then come to the opposition team,
"FORMAL CLOTHS" team...
when the 1st speaker start off their point,
we were like, THANKS GOD~!!
worse than us.. hahas...
*i'm not saying that we are perfect,but at least better than them*

Then when finish the debate already,
and after they all went off,
our teacher announce that we are the winner...
Happy is obviously lar...
BUT, WILL HAD TO HAVE ANOTHER DEBATE....
Which mean more time will be wasted on the 2nd debate..
haizzz....
><"""

Then come to the time when we are having our lunch,
"she" sms me~!!
-a take care msg-
Although it's just an ordinary message,
but it means alots to me~!!

After having some messaging,
she didn't reply me again... :(
I was so upset that time,
but at least it's a sign that she didn't forget me..

I'll keep on waiting as long as possible..
Just hope that one day u might know it,
as well as come back to me~!!
It's my dream after all~!!
Wish you good luck~!!

-jackson-

天意弄人~

是真的吗？
这句话反覆的从我心中回味起来~！！
真的有可能吗？
我问了又问~！！

今天我走了好久，
原本不想去的地方，(times square)
我去了~！！
可是，却这么巧让我碰上了我想找的钥匙圈。。
我突然开心起来。。

找了好久，却找不到我要的那个款式，
问了售货员，她们也帮我找了，
说了一句我不想听的话。。
对不起，没有货！！
zhadao... =.=!!!

然后她问我，选其它的款式啦，
这里这么多。。。
**拜托，我只要那个~！！**
然后，好无犹豫的回答她，
我只要那个~！！

给了电话号码，
要等到有货才能拿。。
伤心到我。。。。
是真的天意在作弄我吗？？
如果是真的话，
那就请你不要再这样玩我了，
好吗？？？

What a black day~!!

Awake from my sleeping,
as the dream awake me~!!
So happy that i have this dream,
but so sad that i don't know will it be true or not..
All i know now is just how to be more though
and how to get over to another day...

So many days had gone..
So many nights had gone too..
What actually do u feel on it??
Are you,do you, will you,
really feel ok to it??

I'm here alone,
standing in the middle,
hangging out with friends just not to....
not to let the feelings control me again...

I really don't know how to start off
with another relationship all over again....
None of my feelings exists thoroughly in the bottom of my heart..
Be love or in love is just somehow doesn't suit me anymore...

jesus christ

How i gonna face the other relationship all over again???
Who can teach me by then??
It's kinda suffer everytime i recall back my memories..
Kinda lonely when i think back of the pass..
I have already done the best out of it..
Sometime still can't manage to handle it~!!

You teach me how to fall in love,
you teach me how to love someone,
but you forget to teach me how to let go of someone~!!

It's just doesn't seems to be enough for me~!!
Everytime i put an effort on it,
Everytime i falls~!!

Without you,
my life ain't complete~!
Without you,
my life ain't my life~!!

Jesus Christ,
can You just teach me how to be more forgotten??
Just a little bit of it will do~!!
:-(

new look~!! ^^

hahas.. my another new look..

erm.. wat i mean is after cut abit bit lar...

but my parents say "y u didnt cut at all"??

sweat.....

den i said,

everytime u oso say like dat to me...

=.=""

reali "longpia" dat time..

but so happy dat no nid to use my money to pay for it..

u noe,recently i almost pokai ad...

de money for tis month >500<

i finish it in 3 weeks...

wakao!!!

wat i buy oso don noe...

just flow out like nth....

><""""

next month going to save money ad..

some more de staff in tarc say dat i can boro loan..

BUT,if get caught,

BOTH scholarship & loan GONE~!!

=.='''

den i was like...

btr u don say can boro...

Happy Birthday~!! 02,06,08

I thought that you and me meant to be,
I thought that you will always be there for me,
I thought that everything you had promised you’ll mean it,
I even thought that we do have our future..
But everything seems to be gone when you said those words to me..
Everything in my life changed in a sudden..
Everything so messy and so unarranged..

I want to forget you in the rest of my life!!
Even erase our memories!!
But I can’t,
Cause if I do so,
I’ll regret after that…
That is why I’m still suffering right now..

Day time, I’ll be the person as i used to be..
Night time, I changed..
Changed from one to another…
It’s so cold and lonely here,
Nothing much to do or to say with..

Thought that I can know a little bit of you life,
Know how you go along with your life now,
Your activities and others..
And you are the one who say can at first..
But now you are the one who didn’t reply me..

I……..
Sorry…….
For making you so troublesome..
Hope you happy on your birthday celebration..
I can’t sing the song to you face to face anymore,
I know that…

So I’ll sing it at here and hope that if one day you view my blog,
You’ll know about it…
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday, happy birthday,
Happy birthday to kah yi…

Promise me that you will smile everyday till the rest of you life,
I’ll not trouble you anymore…
Be happy is all I can do now,
It’s also my dream to be back as a happy person now…

~MemorY~

Memory,
it's something very special that the God has gave us since the day we born
it's something very undescribeable thing
which we all are unable to control it.

~Sweet Memory~
Last forever in your mind and everytime you recalled back,
you will feel the happiness of that time,
you will appreciate that particular time you spend on it.

>Sad Memory<
Last longer than the sweetest memory in your mind,
something that will make you feel sad and even tears,
no matter what u do on it,
the memory just cant be erased.

*Bitter memory*
It'll last in your mind for a quick long period of times,
cause you have been through the suffer that no one know,
that you cant tell anyone about it.

-Memory-
It's something that we make us happy or even sad,
that will not only spice up our life,
but also make us a better person.

Get on a new life by erasing the memories is not possible,
none of us will succeed in erasing our memories.
$uffer through the process of the memories and get up again on it,
it's something that i need to do.

Although now i cant make it,
cant forget that memory at all,
but i'll try the best out of mine to make you inside of my heart,
then slowly get up and get well soon.
After all,
you'll always in my heart no matter what happen!

????

It has been long time since i last wrote my post..
And it has been many things happen recently
like college stuff and some new friends over there...
Alone there is so lonely and sometime feels even sucks about it..
It's not ok after all to live alone without any roomate..
At night certainly will feel so quite and not suit to it..

Sometime just don't know how to face the problems that come across me
too much to handle and i don't know how to handle it all..
Feel tired about all those things:relationship,work-to-do,etc..
Luckily there is still has an entertainment (music) for me
if not i sure die at there..

Human really need the other party to accompany only can feel better??
Isit so?? Cause somehow i just wondered how would it be for a person
who have had nothing, i mean partner in their life..
What would it be??
The feelings of being lonelynesS?
Can someone tell me about it??

Start of another month again..
One month come and pass by so frequently..
I really have to admit that time wait no one..
And time pass by is just too quick to be noticed..
So just cherish every single of the important people in your life
while you can..
Don't wait till last minute then only regret about it..

Now what i can do is just study hard to maintain my cgpa
and also be participated in the co-curiculum..
Many works need to be done by certain period of time
and too much of assignment and revision need to do
to get well and success on it..
Although sometime i'll think back about you and me,
but i'll try to control the feelings as quickly as possible,
quite hard to do so,but i'll try on it...

Just hope you get well in your study and also your new relationship,
wish you all the best at here!!
I'll still be there whenever you need me,
just don't afraid to call me!!
All i can for you is to wait your call......