sorry...

Sorry that i let you all feel that my blog is so sad and hurt.
I don't know why and where to express my feelings thoroughly.
That's why i express it through my blog.
Hope that you all will not mind if i make you all so down.
And sorry if i make you all feel so.

Today you said that i can find you any time when i feel boring
or want to chat with someone.
I feel so happy to hear it,
but on the other hand,
i don't know what does that mean.
Isit it mean that you still have some feelings on me??
Isit it mean that you still like me somehow??
If it's,
then i'll feel very very glad about it.
Just if it's not,
then why you still treat me like this??
I.............
I really get more and more confuse over here....

I swear to GOD that i love you more than anyone else.
I swear to GOD that my love for you would never fake.
I swear to GOD that if you tell me what i'm not good with,
i did will change it for you....
I really really love and like you till crazy,
just that you are the one who still don't realise about it.

That is the reason why i still can't let go till now.
The 1st message i received from you,
i feel so happy that this world really give me an opportunity.
But today in some of the message you talk about you and him.
I really feel so upset about it.
I don't get it.
Isit you still have the feelings on me but also you still want your boyfriend now??
I feel hurt today.....
Damn hurt when i chat with you the topic about you and him.

I can't really accept that fact that i lose you.
Kah yi or what i call you last time (darl darl),
I still consider you as one of mine.
I do care about you more than anyone else here and always do.
I still waiting for the opportunity to tell you that,
come back to me,
i love you still~!!
I really do~!!