=.="" sad sia after heard de comments..

some of my friends (include new friends lar)
also said that my face look ok..
but the thing is they feel that
i'm like that kind of persons who are "flower hearted"..
zzzz.. really "zhadao"...

am i really look like that??
hate to received the comments somehow..
haiss... my face..
since form4 onwards,many people already told me about this..
what's wrong......
gonna change my face jor...
sighs...

thanks mummy....

yea.. finali hv my own new laptop n 5mp hp ad..
but cant bring it to my new house.. wat de!!!
nvm.. hv it ad den ok liao..
wait for de suitable time to bring it lorr... no choice...
><"""

by de way,nw i wont on9 msn so often..
mayb in de next coming week,i'll be able to do so..
so dont miss me ya~!!
lolxxx...
haizz.. alone in de rental house..

boring+lonely+sienzzz=??!!
(hu can solve tis equation?)
*price will be given*
^^

......

Sometime,somehow,i just hope that night will not come at all.
Cause i'm damn scare of night now.
I don't know why i feel suck when i'm alone.
Like thousand of ghost haunting around me for something.
Something that will not be paid.
And because of that,i keep myself busy on day time till very exhausted,
then only will be able to have a nice sleep at night.
What kind of the person i had become?
Such pathetic,doesn't seems like me anymore.

Wearing a glasses to pretend that i'm not me somehow.
Such a day,such a school time,is it gonna suit me again?
I don't know,cause i have no idea at all.
Night and day,the one in me,is totally different.
I can smile and laugh although sometime it's not real.
But at night,i become totally silence.
Like nothing inside of my soul,
like being left out by this world.

Sometime when i think back about the past,
i'll be unable to sleep no matter how also.
It's sucks!!
Really really hate those feelings when it strikes me!!
It's good to have someone to talk to whenever or whatever the time is.
But it's impossible.
Cause sometime i'll be awake in 2am or maybe 4am.
All my friends had already in their dreams.
Sighs...... Killing!!

1st week in college.....

goshh.. wat a 1st week..
tired,boring,busy, etc....
a new experience i will say in college..
1st week in tarc den catched by my senior to take de audition in oo nite..
erm,oo nite meaning (odysses nite)....
zhadao......

other den tat,i oso join de tt nite... (talentine nite)
oso follow my friend,tat wah...
yst we went for de 2nd audition for tt nite...
actually i wana join oo nite rather den tt nite...
bt no reply from oo nite.. sighss.....

anyway,it's a long way to go after all...
js brought de 1st book of accounting,
look through it, alot of form 5 works are in dere....
quite easy bt all in english.. goshh!!!!
u noe,all of de sudden from malay changed to english....
haiss... speechless...

next week will start of with de 1st semester ad...
so will be vry boring n busy ad.... arghhh!!!
busy but quite happy oso.. ^^
after all,erm....
de feelings inside my heart will still be de same..
js tat i will keep it deep down in my heart.. dats all~

*etern!ty*

A stranger you were once.
Then, with a gentle look you took my hand.
I have tried with all of my being.
To grasp a form comparable to thine own,
but nothing seems worthy.

I know now why Shakespeare could not compare his love to a summer's day.
It would be a crime to denounce the beauty of such a creature as thee,
to simply cast away the precision.

God had placed in forging you.
Each facet of your being,whether it physical or spiritualis,
an ensnarement from which there is no release.

But I do not wish to release.
I wish to stay entrapped forever.
With you for all eternity.

(*o*)

Look around,don't you,feel something missing??
I'm the one you promised you would love,
but you gotta act so far away...
While i'm still holding on,
please turn around and look at me,
all those things you had promised,
all left far away from both of us now....

I can see you,but i can't feel you...
Can't get your attention to save the love..
Look back and see me now,
don't let me down,
please turn around...

I have had love you once in my life time,
the wonderful you spent with me...
I have had you in my shoulder once in my life time,
the wonderful day in my life...

Now that you had gone so far...
Now that i can't wish for anything else..
It's so great that you are part of my memory,
part of my happiness...
You left nothing but just the memory,
the wonderful memory in my lifetime...
Thanks~!!
I do love you till the end of my life~!!

＃想起你＃

每当想起你的时候，
我都总会看回我们的照片，
看了我们的照片，
我又想回了我们的往事．．

我们一起的时间，
一起的快乐，
这一切真的使我很高兴．．
我开心能认识你，
也很开心能与你在一起．．

想起此事，
我．．．．
对不起．．．
无法康复．．．

我什么都不懂，
只知道你能快乐，
不在烦恼，
什么事我都会做．．．

非常的抱歉因我不能康复，
还一直得这样．．．
我．．．
实在是无能为力．．．

对不起～

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

两个月已过，
以前的我和现在的我变了好多好多．．
以前的我常笑口常开，
以前的我常开开心心．．

而现在的我，
已忘了什么是开心，什么是快乐．．
我知道我只能默默地从容面对，
痛苦跟悲伤我已不知是什么感觉了．．
因为我已渐渐的麻木了．．

我很感激身边的友人给我的安慰，
他们给我的鼓励．．
希望我好起来，
不在这样下去！

其实我知道，
但好起来我可以答应你们，
可．．．
如要我把你给忘了，
对不起，
怪我办不到．．．

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

～该不该～

我何等何能．．．
你为何．．
我．．．．
我不曾后悔你我之间的感情．.

我爱的你竟给缘分给割离，
我们应再决强一点 ．．
就那么的一点点．．
但你却选着了判我死刑．．

留给我吧，
将一切的痛往我心里头割切，
我将不会再有新的念情，
因为我答应你，
这一生中也只有你！

虽以如此，
但我仍会在此默默地，
等着你，
关心你，
爱着你．．．

望你有天能明瞭，
我的改变为你而等待．．

story of mine

Humans aren't strong as you thought it would be..
sometimes,we do need some one there to support us..
everytime we fall down,everytime we failed,
it mean a sadness for us and took us time to get up..

It's not that guy must be strong as they born..
they do have their own weakness after all..
guy cannot cry as what they have told me..
should it be that way?

u shined in ur own way in my life once..
u did be my radiant once..
ur smiles and all our happiness still remain in my mind..
it's as clear as yst..
as clear as u r still by my side...

i keep hoping and hoping that our stories will nt js end up like tis..
put my hand on my chest..
thump... thump... thump... thump..
telling me that i'm nt dreaming..
telling me that it's de fact dat u left me bhind..

i did cry it out loudly de time u left me..
sry that i had promised u that i'll nt cry..
bt tears still droping everytime i recall back our past...
tears accompany me walk every single step since de day u left me..
by using every single drop of my tears,i move on..
searching for another hope that will slowly recover bak my wounded..

when i feel desperately wana tot to u,
wat i can is js write in inside tis blog and xpress out..
hope that one day u might see it by urself..
sry that i cant do anything btr to wat u hope me to...
and oso cant be de one u wish me to be...
demo,watashiwa sumimesai...

i'll keep u deep beneath my memory..
as though it's one of de best memory i had..
i do will care bout u whenever u are or watever u ask me to...
move on is de choose dat i hv to choose..
and hoping is de onli way i can do...