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爱情并非一瞬间的事　得知双方虽有好感，
但还是需给彼此时间　彼此认识及互相了解，
不要因急于一时的感情而在一起，
那将唯有演变成分手的下场．
冲动的爱情并无好结果，
反之彼此间做会朋友不就更好吗？
既要在一起　态度去看待那将要发生的念情是很重要的，
所以让彼此一些时间了解大家那不是更好吗？

两人因感情而分开　深爱的人一定身受重伤！
试想想分手后的她该如何呢？
自暴自弃？伤痕累累？或是已把感情的事都抛在脑后呢？
其实几乎全都有　也或许会更多！
这时的他唯有找些朋友聊天解难，
也唯独如此来疗伤了！
但是老实得说　这并非有用，
唯有自己想清想楚再让它慢慢得康复吧．

也许是要自我安慰　自我体会，
让那受重伤的心灵慢慢的康复！
体会后　也让你心灵开始好回，
她伤你的同时也呼唤醒你，
唤醒你的过错也唤醒了你已沉醉在她心里的那以往的你！
一次的唤醒费了很多的功夫来使你再次从深爱中康复，
也唤醒你改过自己　不再犯同样的过错！
改过自己的你　如还爱她倒可以依你的行动再次感动她，
用你的耐心来等待　来感触她！

brand new of me!!

i promise u i'll take gud care of my heatlh...
next time u all see me will b de brand new of me!!
don worry,all my friends... i'll nt do sth so stupid again...
love all friends tat help me!!
promise u,i'll change!!
take care ya~
tis times,tis hours,tis mins,tis sec,i will b differ!!
a brand new of me!!

soli.. i reali soli!!

i reali didnt mean it tat way.. wat i mean is i jus don wan 2 let de pain n hurt fill inside of me...
if it's de way u feel i ugut u,i'm soli...
i reali didnt mean it after all...
i wan u to noe how i feel onli... nt mean 2 let u more angry n hate me....
i reali cherish tat u will be frn wit me again...
tat is y i wan u to noe my feelings via tis blog...
nt let u noe my blog n hurt u...
i don wan n will nvr wan to hurt u...
soli.....
i..... wat i mean is....
aiyo... don noe la... i jus don wan to hurt u!!!
i don wan i create tis blog to make our r'ship more worse...
i create tis blog jus to xpress my feelings nt to hurt u n make u feel more guilty...
i'm soli... soli.. soli...............

無名

刚从医院回来的我，这么快又写了一封了。
我好疼,我苦哦。
我累坏了，我不知明天的我去医院会用多久的时间，
多少的力气再次从谷底爬回上来。

记得你那时对我许下的诺言，渐渐的从时间里给埋墓了。
我觉得好辛苦，真的好累哦。
那你呢？没有事情的活下去吗？
你痛苦还是依然没事的继续呢?
我在我心里画了一个圈，
圈来圈去又回到你的心里。
当你离去时，我好想告诉你，
在我心里恨恨得刺我一刀吧。
让我这样躺着一睡不起。

你好好离开我吧，
我让你选择如此为了还你自由，
你要好好活着，快乐的走着。
就让我再次一个人承受吧。
再次的往痛苦里去，再次的受折磨。

面前的你，离我越来越远，
我骗自己让你走得更远一些。
这么迟钝的我，可能有点懦弱。
让你选择逃脱，也许这样没错。
但离开前，请结束我的生命。
因为失去了你，我一天也不能继续生存下去。
你知道，现在我已不能退后，走到无法挽回快要崩溃，
你却还能从容面对。
怎么会？是我哪里不对？
你，为什么一定要离去？

现在的我已经不配做你的另一半了吗？
我与你的感情几时慢慢的加以冷冻？
或许是我说错了什么或做错了什么，
是否是命运的安排，
还是你不想与我再继续了呢。

我反反复复的想回我们的过去才发现，
我们最美的时间是每当你向我堵嘴时的模样。
那幅撒娇的样子，深刻地在我脑海里。
现在的我只剩下一瓶空瓶子，
里头的一切都给你带走了。
我的心，我的脑，我的思想。我的一切一切。
还来不及好好地写下我们的过去，好好地写下我们的一切，
你已离我而去。

我其实也只是想对你好一点，
并不知道我既然会用错了表情。
我与你能不能继续的走下去就由你来决定吧。
我会用漫长的等待来证明。

时间的证明，你会等我吗？
我不想你答应我，
我只想你用行动来证明。

我累了，不吃不喝的我廋了。
好像抛开我们的记忆，
但似乎渐渐地把它全给想起了。
如果能再重来，
我会握紧你的手，
永远不放开，
一路陪你走到老!

我的改变,我希望会属于你的!
我的时间,我希望会合你一起!
我的未来,我希望能与你同享!

ohya...

next time tell ur bf wat u like n dislike...
dislike r:
包菜，豆芽，苦瓜，豆豆，萝卜，菜豆还有很多很多的青菜．
like r:
chocolate,ice cream,icy drinks,wear beauty cloth,shoping,hv own times & so on~

haha,so many things i rmb.. so many promises i had made... bt i cant realise it.. soli...

wordless

haha,i cant reali think tat i'll post so many in tis months..
jus finish drinking all de wine... nw feeling ok a bit ad..
although vry hot,bt still ok.. at last can slp till tomolo ad.. (i think)

how r u recently? so many days had gone.. fine ma?
so many things i wana ask u oso post inside here ad..
i reali hope tat u will read my post one day.. read it n noe wat i wana tell u..
it might b vry late,bt nvm... reali nvm de..

sit in front of de com so many days ad.. even my cousin all come,my feelings n those hurt still haven cure.. laugh in front of dem without de real smile..
sad n hurt inside my room at nite... =(
nt even a single word i can find 2 xpress my feelings...

sms me one day ba... pls.. i nvr beg any1 in my life.. nw i'm begging u..
jus reply me once o twice 2 let me noe all tat how r u ad?
answer me all de question i wana ask u 4 so long...

*a silly tot fill inside my brain once*
if i can turn bak de clock,i'll turn bak 2 de 1st day v met..
de day v started our relationship..
if reali can,i'll ad change myself.. change n avoid wat had happen 2day...
darl,my love 4 u is nt fake..
i noe tat u mayb might think tat 8 months is vry short..
hw come i can fall in love on u till tat kinda deep..
bt time is nt sth matter.. de onli matter thing is de feelings on u..
de feelings fall deep beneath till cant find a place 4 it 2 get out..

reply me pls... i knee down n beg u~ i jus wana noe u fine n all things r fine...
den i'll hv de mood 2 keep on ad... i'll hv de mood 2 search 4 de course n college i wan..
i'm nw doin nth since de day i get my result... onli my parents fetch me 2 go some college n search 4 de courses onli... if nt i think i wont go at all...
~sighs~

all my msn history is tis word... *sigh*
other thn tis i don noe wat 2 say ad...

if I CAN,den I WILL

如果结果是如此那么我宁愿不要有这段念情．
我宁可我们做回朋友还好过现在连朋友都没得做．
当时的我真得很像永远得跟你在一起，
但我并不只会有这样的结果．
如果我知道是如此那我宁愿我们永远都只是朋友．

今天我与家人去回我们第一次约会的地方(midvalley)，
可是我到了那儿只是想回我们的事情．
我们在那儿的每一分每一秒，
每个过程都有如昨天发生的事．
我对你说的每一句都不曾忘记．
你忘了吗？

昨天的我想把你给尽快忘了，
但今天的我却把当天我们的事情给一一想起．
我．．．．我快累的崩溃了．．
你伤心我也难过因为我们不能在一起，
那为何不给大家一个机会呢？
~dear,i still love u~

累了

我累了，等你等了好久.
我好开心，我刚才能睡觉虽然只睡了两个小时但也够了．
心碎了，等你等了好久．
现在的我，正在努力的收拾心情．
但你放心，不管以后你的日子有多难过，
我会用我的温柔，体贴和问候来陪你度过．

我虽然很难过，但他们说的对，
如果我不尽快的康复那又如何地去爱你或是帮你呢．
在给我点时间吧，我答应你我会好起来．

愛你@等你

爱你，让我学会了放手。
爱你，让我明瞭了快乐。
爱你，让我了解了爱情。
爱你，让我懂得体会你。
爱你，让我改变了自我。
爱你，让我放弃了一切。
爱你，让我不理会他人。
就因为爱着你，让我更懂得许多东西。

因为爱你，所以放手还你自由。。。
因为爱你，所以让你觉得困扰。。。
因为爱你，所以宁愿自己难过。。。
因为爱你，所以我逼自己离开。。。
因为爱你，所以我承受了一切。。。
因为爱你，所以不想你再难过。。。
因为爱你，所以我不在打扰你。。。
就因为爱你，所以我学会了体谅他人。

因为有你，我的人生不再孤单。。。
因为有你，我的人生有了意义。。。
因为有你，我的人生充满期望。。。
因为有你，我的人生有了好奇。。。
因为有你，我的人生充满活力。。。
因为有你，我的人生更加精彩。。。
因为有你，我的人生有了温暖。。。
也因为有你，我爱的你使我无时无刻想着你。

没有了你，我的人生没了光芒与温暖。
没有了你，我的人生就不再有了意义。
没有了你，我的人生就此陷入黑暗里。
没有了你，我的人生一片迷茫及沉默。
没有了你，我的人生不再是精彩无比。
没有了你，我的人生不再像是人生了。
没有了你，我的人生没了盼望及渴求。
就因没有了你，我深爱的你，我的人生完了。

喜欢你不是因为为了要占有你，
而是要与你起分享开心与喜悦。
每个夜晚我都想好好的睡一下，
但每当我闭起双眼时，
我的脑海再次的重复着我们的过去。
想你的心日与俱增不曾减少，
以让爱你的那颗心还是如痴心般似的。
多么想跟你说声请你相信我，好吗？？


我总是一个人走，
心里却充满空洞。
我用了太多的借口，
来弥补寂寞。
却无法找回自由的爱。
曾经擦身而过的喜欢，
在记忆里停留。
习惯搜寻你的我，
只要你就足够。

爱曾经擦身而过，
你也从我身边而过。
可你那温柔的表情从不曾离开我，
一直在我心中不断的重复着。
看到什么全都是你的笑容，
那幅向我堵嘴的模样深深的刻在我心中。

那熟悉的笑容，
从不曾离开我。
在你心底，
看到拥有。
但当我靠近时，
遇到了我想象不到的结果。
我爱你，是我对你永远許下的承诺。
爱着你及守护你，不想去想会有任何的困扰。

偶尔想起我们的过去，
每件开心的事，
虽然有时挺伤心的，
但那些美好的回忆使我坚持的走下去。
虽不知你是否从此不再把我当朋友，
但我仍坚持信念的等你回复我。
我知道我爱的你并非如此的绝情，
我曾爱的你是即好心，开朗又乐于助人。

我愿用我一辈子的坚持与信念来换取你的回复。
我等，我会继续的等你。
一年，十年，甚至到老，我都还会期望你的回复。

~love u so much~

bcz i love u,i force myself 2 leave u & let u go on..
bcz i love u,i didnt call u & make u feel much btr..
bcz i love u,i let myself hurt & didnt tell u how i feel..

bcz i love u,i let u heal n care bout u in de other way without letting u noe..
bcz i love u,i don wana force u 2 make any decision anymore..
bcz i love u,i make our memories as our sweet memory wit de smile of u..

bcz i love u,i quitely folo u 2 go work & make sure u r safe..
bcz i love u,i told myself tat u can survive without my intteruption..
bcz i love u,i keep all de things inside my heart n make it sink deeply beneath de dark hole..

bcz i love u,i ask ur frn 2 comfort whenever i noe u will sad..
bcz i love u,i help u all de way no matter how n where u meet de problems..
bcz i love u,i wait 4 ur reply quitely n calmly..

bcz i love u,i cry at nite without letting u noe..
bcz i love u,i told myself 2 be tough so tat i can care bout u in de future..
bcz i love u,i don wan 2 throw away all our memories..

n bcz of everything,i still love u & will waiting 4 u..

lies...

i lie 2 myself tat i gonna b fine soon.. told myself tat don think bout so much.. keep asking myself wat 2 do de next.. bt do u noe wat my heart tell me?? it tell me nth.. giv me no direction,make me feel more miserable.. de way v used 2 do.. de way u "du zhui" on me.. de way u smile n kiss me.. every single step,every single words u said,every single "lao gai" u do on me still fresh 2 me..

i told myself 2 be strong,bt part of me do nth.. part of me keep thinking of our past.. i'm de one don let it go.. i'm de one wan u bak... r u de same as me which is de same way i wan u bak?? i love u is all i can say n express my feelings in tis blog.. i wan call u bt i cant do so.. i noe tat de situation might bcome more worse.. tat's y i bcome more n more suffer.. suffer fr de pain.. de pain tat no1 can help me.. de pain tat onli i noe for 5 days straight..

lose u i cant live any day longer.. de day i go n get my spm result i think of nth bt just u.. i scare n worry bout u.. worry tat u'll feel sad when u get ur result.. worry tat u cant apply scholarship n make u sad again.. i noe tat when u sad u sure wont tell any1 n onli will draw urself in ur bed n cry.. i wan n wish 2 comfort u.. bt i cant.. i cant call u as it might make ur feelings toward me bcome more worse.. if i can choose btw my result n my life 2 get u bak,i'll definitely do so..

i'm so sincere 2 tell u everything.. every single thing of my past n oso when v met some obstacles.. bt y cant u b sincere 2 me too?? sincere 2 tell me wat our prob..
=(

song:no promises
babe,i don wana run away
*babe ur de one i nid tonite.. no promises
babe nw i nid 2 hold u tide,
i jus wana die in ur eyes.
here 2nite.*
oh babe,when v r 2gather,doing things tat v love,
everytime u nid me i feel like i been heaven,
feeling high..
i don wan 2 let go girl,i jus nid u 2 noe girl..
i don wana run away
repeat *
i don wan 2 run away,i wan 2 stay forever.
from time 2 time.

5 days gone...

saturday early morning: 1.40am is de date tat v break up.. is de day tat my life fill wit empty soul.. is de day tat my life get such meaningless.. is de day tat i start my life wit miserable..

5 days had gone.. leaving me bhind r those unwanted memories,try 2 throw it away bt don noe y i keep on thinkin bout it.. my love n care 4, i hv nvr doubt bout it..

i'm tired n sick rite now.. everynite goes on like tis.. every single hour passed, makes me suffer n hurt when i think bout u.. i cant sleep,nt at all..

it has been 5 days i hv no gud slp.. jus finished visit doctor.. n he say tat if i go on like tis,my immune system even my kidney might b damage n eventually spoil.. without eating n taking some nap,i'm bcome more n more thin.. more n more doesn't look like me.. bcz without ur smile n ur reply 2 me,hw m i suppose 2 hv de mood 2 slp?? do i?? i dont think so..

i don wan 2 tell u is bcz i don wan 2 let u noe tat i'm suffer cz u still can smile n chat wit ur fren n live on like nth bt i sms u,u don even reply me...

tat's y i rather let myself hurt than telling u how much i feel..

i noe tat some of ur frn said tat i'm so "flower heart" n u oso told me once.. bt i told myself nt 2 think bout wat dey feel on me n i'll use my action 2 prove it.. nw,i did prove it 2 u bt it's too late cz u cant even giv me a chance 4 both of us 2 hv a try n work things out..

i'm vry grateful tat i did made ur dreams come true which is u hope tat our relationship can last for 3 months, bt 4 me is definitely more than tat.. tis is wat u expect for our relationship n i made it to 8 months while keep fall deep in love wit u in tis period.. u didnt told me tat u'll think our relationship will last onli for 3 months n u r telling me n promise me tat u will nvr leave me.. nt at all.. tis is wat u told me.. bt rite nw,it turn into d opposite way.. n de one suffer de most is me.. bcz without any preparation u say de word break up.. without any warning o sign 2 show tat our relationship is such unstable,u told me tat v break up ba..

8 months 2gather wit all de memories gather in my mind still nt enuff strength 2 defeat de word "break up".. still canot change ur mind n get u bak wit those sweet memories..

now my mind,my body n my soul r damn tired rite now.. i don noe i still can stand wit it 4 hw many days.. mayb 1 o 2 days more.. bt i wan 2 wait for a few days 4 ur reply.. tat's y i told myself tat i canot collapse rite nw.. nt until i get ur reply.. bt if there is still no reply,i think i'll collapse.. den i'll hope tat u can live wit happy n no worries..

bt 4 me,everything around me seems 2 be nt ok.. everything seems meaningless.. de life,de health,de things around me n even myself all sux.. i noe tat u won on9 4 a decade.. n oso 4 sure tat u wont c tis page..

i'm soli dear,soli 4 everything i did.. soli 4 all de mistakes i had made.. soli 2 those tot tat i can cure vry fast bt i jus let u down..

why? why? why?

since de day u say de word break up,i feel like don wana live in tis world ad.. i noe tat u will say i'm so childish 2 talk bout tat... bt i wan u 2 noe sth... sth tat u reali nid 2 noe.. since de day u say n promise me tat u nvr gonna leave me,i started 2 fall deep in love 2 u.. every single thing i do,i jus don care bout how de ppl will react bt onli u.. i didnt realise tat de way i care 4 u make u feel such annoying perhaps u think tat i m controling u... bt i jus scare tat ur work might b vry danger.. cz i cant acc u n u keep telling me wat happen at there... it make me feel more worry..

i reali cant accept de fact tat my understanding is such low.. n when i do realise tat i was wrong,u didnt even giv me a chance 2 change... u tell me tat de day v argue u adgiv me some sort of things like tat.. bt i jus wan 2 let u noe tat if v argue at dat time den u giv me such an idea... i sure wont realise bout tat.. cz v r arguing... i'm so sad tat i didnt realise it... 4days didnt slp n keep on thinking bout my fault bt at last u still... u still didnt giv me a chance 2 change... is it tat difficult 4 us 2 hv another chance 2 work it out again?? b4 i call u,i noe tat if u cant accept it,u sure will ignore me once again.. tat's reali wat happen now... i'm soli tat i hurt u.. soli tat i didnt giv u ur own time n oso of my behaviours sometime... still hoping tat u can accept it.. i noe i was so childish minded.. cz every single of my frn say btr don try n get on ur life... bt my instinct told me tat nt to... cz i don wan 2 let our memory be de past things.. n our relationship b de past tense..

till now i m still love u... no matter wat my frn say n i noe bout all tat... bt my heart jus doesnt wan to let u go... i don sms u is bcz i don wan u to feel i'm such annoying... bt at least u reply me when i send u wishing msg... its make me so hurt... my heart is like a knife cut through it...