lies...

i lie 2 myself tat i gonna b fine soon.. told myself tat don think bout so much.. keep asking myself wat 2 do de next.. bt do u noe wat my heart tell me?? it tell me nth.. giv me no direction,make me feel more miserable.. de way v used 2 do.. de way u "du zhui" on me.. de way u smile n kiss me.. every single step,every single words u said,every single "lao gai" u do on me still fresh 2 me..

i told myself 2 be strong,bt part of me do nth.. part of me keep thinking of our past.. i'm de one don let it go.. i'm de one wan u bak... r u de same as me which is de same way i wan u bak?? i love u is all i can say n express my feelings in tis blog.. i wan call u bt i cant do so.. i noe tat de situation might bcome more worse.. tat's y i bcome more n more suffer.. suffer fr de pain.. de pain tat no1 can help me.. de pain tat onli i noe for 5 days straight..

lose u i cant live any day longer.. de day i go n get my spm result i think of nth bt just u.. i scare n worry bout u.. worry tat u'll feel sad when u get ur result.. worry tat u cant apply scholarship n make u sad again.. i noe tat when u sad u sure wont tell any1 n onli will draw urself in ur bed n cry.. i wan n wish 2 comfort u.. bt i cant.. i cant call u as it might make ur feelings toward me bcome more worse.. if i can choose btw my result n my life 2 get u bak,i'll definitely do so..

i'm so sincere 2 tell u everything.. every single thing of my past n oso when v met some obstacles.. bt y cant u b sincere 2 me too?? sincere 2 tell me wat our prob..
=(

song:no promises
babe,i don wana run away
*babe ur de one i nid tonite.. no promises
babe nw i nid 2 hold u tide,
i jus wana die in ur eyes.
here 2nite.*
oh babe,when v r 2gather,doing things tat v love,
everytime u nid me i feel like i been heaven,
feeling high..
i don wan 2 let go girl,i jus nid u 2 noe girl..
i don wana run away
repeat *
i don wan 2 run away,i wan 2 stay forever.
from time 2 time.