why? why? why?

since de day u say de word break up,i feel like don wana live in tis world ad.. i noe tat u will say i'm so childish 2 talk bout tat... bt i wan u 2 noe sth... sth tat u reali nid 2 noe.. since de day u say n promise me tat u nvr gonna leave me,i started 2 fall deep in love 2 u.. every single thing i do,i jus don care bout how de ppl will react bt onli u.. i didnt realise tat de way i care 4 u make u feel such annoying perhaps u think tat i m controling u... bt i jus scare tat ur work might b vry danger.. cz i cant acc u n u keep telling me wat happen at there... it make me feel more worry..

i reali cant accept de fact tat my understanding is such low.. n when i do realise tat i was wrong,u didnt even giv me a chance 2 change... u tell me tat de day v argue u adgiv me some sort of things like tat.. bt i jus wan 2 let u noe tat if v argue at dat time den u giv me such an idea... i sure wont realise bout tat.. cz v r arguing... i'm so sad tat i didnt realise it... 4days didnt slp n keep on thinking bout my fault bt at last u still... u still didnt giv me a chance 2 change... is it tat difficult 4 us 2 hv another chance 2 work it out again?? b4 i call u,i noe tat if u cant accept it,u sure will ignore me once again.. tat's reali wat happen now... i'm soli tat i hurt u.. soli tat i didnt giv u ur own time n oso of my behaviours sometime... still hoping tat u can accept it.. i noe i was so childish minded.. cz every single of my frn say btr don try n get on ur life... bt my instinct told me tat nt to... cz i don wan 2 let our memory be de past things.. n our relationship b de past tense..

till now i m still love u... no matter wat my frn say n i noe bout all tat... bt my heart jus doesnt wan to let u go... i don sms u is bcz i don wan u to feel i'm such annoying... bt at least u reply me when i send u wishing msg... its make me so hurt... my heart is like a knife cut through it...