我真得就只有如此吗？

有人曾告诉我，感情是非常脆弱的，
有人曾告诉我，善心去对待每件事就必有回报，
有人更曾告诉我，勇敢地去面对每件事，
我也曾对我低落的朋友这样的说！

说，谁不会呢？
但是真正去面对的时候，
你的感觉会是如何呢？
而我，现在则在面对着！
而我，现在才知道那是如此得难受！

真心地对待她人，
善心的帮助有需要的人，
得到的真的只有伤心的下场吗？
有谁能告诉我？
谁能明了我现在的心？

不但不能告诉家人，
更不能将那些心情给表露出来．
每当想起往事时，
就只能独自在房里一人度过．

sien!!!

everything doesnt go on like it plan to be,
everything seems to be mess up,
no1 i can talk to,
no1 can understand wat i reali wan,
cant talk to parents nor my friends,
keep it inside my brain!!

shld i do it?
shld i pursue my dream or so call de course dat i like?
wat shld i do?
btw,it's so hard for me to make de decision..
de decision tat none of my family agree wit!!

feel sux bout my life when no1 reali agree wit wat i wan to pursue wit!
feel lost when every1 keep telling me it's nt worth to take de sub!!
feel sad when no1 behind me and giv me support!!
sighs,wat shld i do actually?
giv up everything perhaps.... ><""

arghh!!
feel like wana disappear in tis world for a long term of period!
don feel like wana think anything anymore!!
nt even de course n where shld i study!!
all disagree wit me!!
sighs!!!

thanks all~

I'm so glad that i still have at least some of my friends who care about me..
It's so silly that to start of with ones relationship but at the end,
when it broke up, the one who care u the most and will listen to you is your friends..
and not the one who have been with you for so long..

i don't feel like i will start of with any other new relationship again..
not saying that i'm kinda afraid,
but it's just hurt and suffer when it doesn't go on as plan..
better for me to be friend with some one than to be part of my life (gf)

the feelings doesn't go well as it plan to be,
neither the planing for my further study!!
i know well that all life must have been through this,
but it's just too early for me to get through it already!!
so many problems i need to solve!!
so many things that struggle around my mind!!
all those problems that keep digging me off...

sometime even feel suck about my life..
all things kind of mess up..
sighs......
really don't know why it all happen in just a sudden!!
don't really know what i should express anymore..
just hope that every couples that i know live n be together happily!!!
~love you all~
*nitez den*

*3mpty soul*

~one month gone~

it has been one month since de day v break up..
how r u recently,happy n fine?
there hv been so many questions i want to ask u..
so many months since i last saw u...

i do noe tat u will be in love wit de guy tat work at de same place as u do...
i oso noe tat u will be much more happier than b4..
i noe it's a gud sign n tat is y i nvr sms u again...
wat i can say i hv ad done it...
i onli wish u get de meaning of my msg...

i wish u happy n gud luck all de way..
any things n probs tat trouble u,
i will try de best to solve it for u...
~i love u~
~i wait u~

My lov3 foR yoU will last 4ever

It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see
I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up

Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die,
you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh,
some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye

What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips,
to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes,
I'm just a man

When he holds you close,
when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him '
cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day -Always

If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would

Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old livesWe'll find a place
where the sun still shines

tis mv same like wat i feel wit de guy..

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de most btm is where de mv located...
just hv a look ba

~qing字怎么写~

爱情其实是一个很抽象化的东西，
越是想得到它，
越是想了解它，
可到头来还是会失去它．

勉强与放开只是一线之差，
当你想通后，
你也就会想，
因爱着你我愿让你走，
因为只有如此你才能快乐．
虽然这样我会很伤，
但为了你，
是值得的！
就有我一个人承受吧．

我并不是在扮伟大，
而是我是真心地想要看到你幸福，
所以虽然你不知我做了这么多都是为了你，
乘至借了带学金也是为了你．
但并无所谓，
因为我并不想你知道我这样做，
我只想你有时会很开心地笑着说，
这次的学费少给了．
这样的笑，
我已足够了！

爱你并不需要太多的理由，
虽然你现在可能跟令一个在一起，
但如你有事时也可来找我，
我知你看不到也不想再去看我写些什么了，
但我只想说，
我在你身后默默地等你．
只要你幸福，
我就幸福了！

好了，我不多写了．
爱你，想你，等你．．．

~changing process~

after being told by my on9 friend's friend..
i realise tat i shldnt do tis...
i shld nt be like tis,although it did will be hurt sometime..
bt i shld nt keep drowning like tis..
cz if i do,hw r u gonna love me bak again...
hw r u going to "yi kao" a person like me...
so,i will try so hard n change..
i want u to noe tat i'm worth for u to fall in love on me once again...
i want u to feel even happy to b wit me thn b4...
n help u wit every single probs u face on...
darl,i love u still...

情

爱情并非一瞬间的事　得知双方虽有好感，
但还是需给彼此时间　彼此认识及互相了解，
不要因急于一时的感情而在一起，
那将唯有演变成分手的下场．
冲动的爱情并无好结果，
反之彼此间做会朋友不就更好吗？
既要在一起　态度去看待那将要发生的念情是很重要的，
所以让彼此一些时间了解大家那不是更好吗？

两人因感情而分开　深爱的人一定身受重伤！
试想想分手后的她该如何呢？
自暴自弃？伤痕累累？或是已把感情的事都抛在脑后呢？
其实几乎全都有　也或许会更多！
这时的他唯有找些朋友聊天解难，
也唯独如此来疗伤了！
但是老实得说　这并非有用，
唯有自己想清想楚再让它慢慢得康复吧．

也许是要自我安慰　自我体会，
让那受重伤的心灵慢慢的康复！
体会后　也让你心灵开始好回，
她伤你的同时也呼唤醒你，
唤醒你的过错也唤醒了你已沉醉在她心里的那以往的你！
一次的唤醒费了很多的功夫来使你再次从深爱中康复，
也唤醒你改过自己　不再犯同样的过错！
改过自己的你　如还爱她倒可以依你的行动再次感动她，
用你的耐心来等待　来感触她！

brand new of me!!

i promise u i'll take gud care of my heatlh...
next time u all see me will b de brand new of me!!
don worry,all my friends... i'll nt do sth so stupid again...
love all friends tat help me!!
promise u,i'll change!!
take care ya~
tis times,tis hours,tis mins,tis sec,i will b differ!!
a brand new of me!!

soli.. i reali soli!!

i reali didnt mean it tat way.. wat i mean is i jus don wan 2 let de pain n hurt fill inside of me...
if it's de way u feel i ugut u,i'm soli...
i reali didnt mean it after all...
i wan u to noe how i feel onli... nt mean 2 let u more angry n hate me....
i reali cherish tat u will be frn wit me again...
tat is y i wan u to noe my feelings via tis blog...
nt let u noe my blog n hurt u...
i don wan n will nvr wan to hurt u...
soli.....
i..... wat i mean is....
aiyo... don noe la... i jus don wan to hurt u!!!
i don wan i create tis blog to make our r'ship more worse...
i create tis blog jus to xpress my feelings nt to hurt u n make u feel more guilty...
i'm soli... soli.. soli...............

無名

刚从医院回来的我，这么快又写了一封了。
我好疼,我苦哦。
我累坏了，我不知明天的我去医院会用多久的时间，
多少的力气再次从谷底爬回上来。

记得你那时对我许下的诺言，渐渐的从时间里给埋墓了。
我觉得好辛苦，真的好累哦。
那你呢？没有事情的活下去吗？
你痛苦还是依然没事的继续呢?
我在我心里画了一个圈，
圈来圈去又回到你的心里。
当你离去时，我好想告诉你，
在我心里恨恨得刺我一刀吧。
让我这样躺着一睡不起。

你好好离开我吧，
我让你选择如此为了还你自由，
你要好好活着，快乐的走着。
就让我再次一个人承受吧。
再次的往痛苦里去，再次的受折磨。

面前的你，离我越来越远，
我骗自己让你走得更远一些。
这么迟钝的我，可能有点懦弱。
让你选择逃脱，也许这样没错。
但离开前，请结束我的生命。
因为失去了你，我一天也不能继续生存下去。
你知道，现在我已不能退后，走到无法挽回快要崩溃，
你却还能从容面对。
怎么会？是我哪里不对？
你，为什么一定要离去？

现在的我已经不配做你的另一半了吗？
我与你的感情几时慢慢的加以冷冻？
或许是我说错了什么或做错了什么，
是否是命运的安排，
还是你不想与我再继续了呢。

我反反复复的想回我们的过去才发现，
我们最美的时间是每当你向我堵嘴时的模样。
那幅撒娇的样子，深刻地在我脑海里。
现在的我只剩下一瓶空瓶子，
里头的一切都给你带走了。
我的心，我的脑，我的思想。我的一切一切。
还来不及好好地写下我们的过去，好好地写下我们的一切，
你已离我而去。

我其实也只是想对你好一点，
并不知道我既然会用错了表情。
我与你能不能继续的走下去就由你来决定吧。
我会用漫长的等待来证明。

时间的证明，你会等我吗？
我不想你答应我，
我只想你用行动来证明。

我累了，不吃不喝的我廋了。
好像抛开我们的记忆，
但似乎渐渐地把它全给想起了。
如果能再重来，
我会握紧你的手，
永远不放开，
一路陪你走到老!

我的改变,我希望会属于你的!
我的时间,我希望会合你一起!
我的未来,我希望能与你同享!

ohya...

next time tell ur bf wat u like n dislike...
dislike r:
包菜，豆芽，苦瓜，豆豆，萝卜，菜豆还有很多很多的青菜．
like r:
chocolate,ice cream,icy drinks,wear beauty cloth,shoping,hv own times & so on~

haha,so many things i rmb.. so many promises i had made... bt i cant realise it.. soli...

wordless

haha,i cant reali think tat i'll post so many in tis months..
jus finish drinking all de wine... nw feeling ok a bit ad..
although vry hot,bt still ok.. at last can slp till tomolo ad.. (i think)

how r u recently? so many days had gone.. fine ma?
so many things i wana ask u oso post inside here ad..
i reali hope tat u will read my post one day.. read it n noe wat i wana tell u..
it might b vry late,bt nvm... reali nvm de..

sit in front of de com so many days ad.. even my cousin all come,my feelings n those hurt still haven cure.. laugh in front of dem without de real smile..
sad n hurt inside my room at nite... =(
nt even a single word i can find 2 xpress my feelings...

sms me one day ba... pls.. i nvr beg any1 in my life.. nw i'm begging u..
jus reply me once o twice 2 let me noe all tat how r u ad?
answer me all de question i wana ask u 4 so long...

*a silly tot fill inside my brain once*
if i can turn bak de clock,i'll turn bak 2 de 1st day v met..
de day v started our relationship..
if reali can,i'll ad change myself.. change n avoid wat had happen 2day...
darl,my love 4 u is nt fake..
i noe tat u mayb might think tat 8 months is vry short..
hw come i can fall in love on u till tat kinda deep..
bt time is nt sth matter.. de onli matter thing is de feelings on u..
de feelings fall deep beneath till cant find a place 4 it 2 get out..

reply me pls... i knee down n beg u~ i jus wana noe u fine n all things r fine...
den i'll hv de mood 2 keep on ad... i'll hv de mood 2 search 4 de course n college i wan..
i'm nw doin nth since de day i get my result... onli my parents fetch me 2 go some college n search 4 de courses onli... if nt i think i wont go at all...
~sighs~

all my msn history is tis word... *sigh*
other thn tis i don noe wat 2 say ad...